Love

I can't think of a real way to say what I want. There is so little that I can say. I guess more than anything I miss you. It still hurts to think about. I pray that it wasn't so. I can't help but feel the loss. To love someone you lose. To watch it all become nothing. Is it pain that i feel? Or is it mere sentimentality. I tell myself so often that there will be something far better. Most of the time it doesn't feel that way. I miss you. I miss the conversations we had. I want so much to understand the reason. I guess I just need to trust that God is a better judge than me. Forgive me and remember me. In the end I will have to let you go. In the end it will be better. In the end.